I went East to be a new me, but I went to the East and I was still myself. I returned West to get back to the people who knew me, but I'm not her anymore. I'm not sure where she went or if I ever was her at all or if she was just one more more weak mask I wore. Am I afraid of everything or nothing? Fluffy keeps unintentionally talking over me and I'm not sure what it means but it seems like a detail that might be important. She always has some. I notice it more now. Reinforcing my silence seems very home-like to me. I remember the last time I was loud for an extended period she and Jade were quite sure that something was very wrong with me. Funny that.